Nothing and everything.

I wrote this poem about a year now,its about nothing, its about everything... Lol. See if u understand it.

2 bills was all I needed to release some of what I've been feeling for 3 years.  Sitting there, I felt a feeling I've never felt; Rastafari music in the air.

I began to laugh but he remained calm... sooo calm. It annoyed me.. because its like he couldn't relate to me at all.

Was I even sitting there or was it just a ..thought? Cause all I can feel is that I was so tall. He's sitting beside me but yet he's so... Far...

And just like that he was gone.., am I really here? And it was then that I felt the fear, cause it was his presence that kept me somewhat calm...

I think am in the car, but i don't know how we got this far cause I don't remember leaving the chair.. But I like the way am feeling cause my emotions became soo... Clear.

He listened.. I see him responding to my painful words. I want to stop but I can't .. The pain is too much for me to continue bear...

There is a hurt in my voice... who woulda knew that, that moment would be the cue that relieved me from 3years of anguish and pain.. It was like I finally got the courage that made me cry with the rain...

Im hungry.... So hungry.where was this food he said he would get me..? I got so pissed, is that the way I've always wanted to act? Getting heated because I was in need for more than just a snack?

I think we're home... I know this road. I can't stop talking and I need some kind of control. We're in his room, did I wash my face? So much chicken .. even though I can't quite remember the taste.

I'm skipping scenes.. Is this real? Did I just eat a whole chicken? Will I be able to sleep?

A lot is in my head, I need to relax. He's playing a movie.. I started to feel sleepy or is this feeling 'relax'?
He's gone.. I start to look around but then he's back. I feel protected, he never got impatient, his presence protected me. I can go to sleep...  He is here.