Nothing and everything.

I wrote this poem about a year now,its about nothing, its about everything... Lol. See if u understand it.

2 bills was all I needed to release some of what I've been feeling for 3 years.  Sitting there, I felt a feeling I've never felt; Rastafari music in the air.

I began to laugh but he remained calm... sooo calm. It annoyed me.. because its like he couldn't relate to me at all.

Was I even sitting there or was it just a ..thought? Cause all I can feel is that I was so tall. He's sitting beside me but yet he's so... Far...

And just like that he was gone.., am I really here? And it was then that I felt the fear, cause it was his presence that kept me somewhat calm...

I think am in the car, but i don't know how we got this far cause I don't remember leaving the chair.. But I like the way am feeling cause my emotions became soo... Clear.

He listened.. I see him responding to my painful words. I want to stop but I can't .. The pain is too much for me to continue bear...

There is a hurt in my voice... who woulda knew that, that moment would be the cue that relieved me from 3years of anguish and pain.. It was like I finally got the courage that made me cry with the rain...

Im hungry.... So hungry.where was this food he said he would get me..? I got so pissed, is that the way I've always wanted to act? Getting heated because I was in need for more than just a snack?

I think we're home... I know this road. I can't stop talking and I need some kind of control. We're in his room, did I wash my face? So much chicken .. even though I can't quite remember the taste.

I'm skipping scenes.. Is this real? Did I just eat a whole chicken? Will I be able to sleep?

A lot is in my head, I need to relax. He's playing a movie.. I started to feel sleepy or is this feeling 'relax'?
He's gone.. I start to look around but then he's back. I feel protected, he never got impatient, his presence protected me. I can go to sleep...  He is here.

What is it about love?

what is it about love?

Love is such a beautiful feeling. Its almost like a .... hug. It a joy just to wake up to a loving a text, a peaceful feeling waking with that person on your mind.

Love is like ... chocolate. You just cant have enough. That feeling of estacy just to have that significant other around.

but, to love someone that wont love you back is the saddest thing on earth.  Constantly thinking about someone who rejects to acknowledge your worth. The pain of just wanting memorable moments between you two, knowing it is just a wish wanted only by you.

Constantly wanting to express how you feel to those specific ears, but so afraid they wont even care.

Its so strange,...... but we love love.... even when love refuses to love us back .

First Sandy Walk 2014

I WENT TO THE BEACH TODAY!
So, I've been itching about going to the beach for the past week and today i finally decided to get ready ride or no ride. Fortunately, this motivated my brother to bring me.

I spent the day by myself at the beach with a few interruptions by the opposite sex but all in all, it was a good day full with meditation and relaxation. i got a lot off my mind, and i definitely recommend going to the beach by yourself if you just want to unwind.

But just in case your not the loner kind of person, even if its just for a few hours, there are a few items i would recommend bringing:
1. an iPod or mp3 player
2. camera
3. a book, nothing like reading to help you calmly pass the time away
4. money. when i got bored today i took my very first ride on one of those plastic sailboats! it was soooo much fun! thinking about doing it again.
5. fooooood!

Enjoy your year, starting it off with a blast!
Dani

Is love really unconditional?

We like to talk about love like it’s unconditional but there is probably nothing more conditional than love. There’s no point in having love for someone who doesn't want it. There’s no point in putting endless energy into someone who has nothing but empty words for you and not even that, someone who it makes no difference to whether you wake up in the morning, or don’t. We are not hardwired. We are not absolutes...

sex credit

Okay, so i was just relaxing earlier and this little thought came to my mind:

"Say,... at the time of our birth, as females, God gave us 'sex credit' however we are unable to 'top-up' this credit cause God told us that we should be careful what we do with our sex credit cause it can not be refilled.
Now, lets imagine that God gave us all $100 worth of sex credit. Every new partner we lose 5 credit, every casual encounter we lose 3 credit, and every meaningless sex costs u 3 credit. How would you sex credit would you still have? "

It is my belief that we are taking sex too lightly these days, but is it our fault really? i mean, we can find a sex conversation around every corner, on every social media site, most music and television production anyway.
However, if we just go about it in this nonchalant kind of manner, how much credit do we have left? and wouldn't it be sad if when we find the one who we are meant to be with and decide to get married we realize that as women we have no credit left?

just a thought... dani
feel free to comment :)